Hello from the long lost relem of endless winter

The past: Ok I know it has been forever since I posted. It should have taken me so long to get back in the swing of things since the fall of my prior job and company and the promo to the new job and new company and such. But I am here now so that means I am getting back on my feet and running. I think the holidays had a lot to do with my general lack of will and could also be a huge reason for the 20+ lbs weight gain. I know I sound like a woman complaining about that… it is more about felling good then being skinny. The move to the new apartment didn’t help with anything either. For some reason I ended up with more unpacked boxes in this new place. I didn’t have much to pack to begin with and I am still trying to figure out what is in them without opening them.

The now: So what is going on here… a little of everything these days. I have had so much going on that I have all but dropped out of the MINI scene. I have been spending most of my time learing my new job and doing side work. NVCS has really picked up in 2010. I think more and more people are trying to my computer systems run longer to save money in these shaky times. That just means for a few dollars I can show up and clean and do some general work on your systems. I am even thinking about a flat rate on system cleanups. It can be time consuming but it is a low cost endevor for me and customer satisfaction is the best part of my job. There is just something about helping someone out and taking a system that is trashed and make it as clean and new as possible.

The future: I see a very bright future ahead of me. Work is good, home isn’t bad. There are always things that anoy you and in time you either get used to the fact that is how it is… or you work to change it. I have a bad habbit of just sitting back and waiting for it to change itself. I am working to change that habbit and start working hard to make everything better. Life just doesn’t fix itself and it isn’t complex just hard.

Lets see if I keep the posts flowing this time. Doing this makes working though issues in my head easier.

Andrew

The Roots of Anger

Why does the world throw us in the anger so easily? At every turn there is someone or something there to knock you down when things seem they are going well. When there is a glimmer of hope at the end of what has seemed a dark and lonely time, the statement is made without the words “That was all just a lie”. It makes the end of the world seem so close and nothing seems to make you feel alive. Why can’t life just be ‘OK’? I am not asking for greatness or perfection. All I want is stability. All I want is the ability to live and plan and scheme to make life better. To pursue happiness and to be given the opportunity to be a good human being. Frustration is the root of anger and the world breeds frustration.

Just needed to go off on a rant.
Andrew

Back in the saddle

WOW!!! What a interesting few months. For me this time away has been filled with tense moments, big changes, and some good things. First, let me say I am truly sorry for not writing for all this time. I shouldn’t have needed to stop but there were things happening in my life that required me to keep things on the down low for a while. You know the drama stuff you have to deal with. Friends dating friends, people breaking up, near job losses, pay cuts, and so so much more (disclaimer “to keep more drama from happening”: This list does not state specific things that have or have not happened. Don’t you hate disclaimers? Talk about the standard political idea there… do not deny or confirm anything ever!) We have all dealt with the ‘politics’ of life so that is all am going to say about that.

Now for the good stuff? In the last few months I have been fired and hired twice by the same company, first it was a restructure for money reasons, and the second time it was for a merger. With this merger everything has seemed like a the longest list of BS ever. First, not knowing if I even have a job anymore because there was zero communication with the employees; that was several weeks of just endless doomsday rumors. Second, it was waiting another week to find out if I was a Temp or Full Time. Then it was nearly another week before I was officially offered a job that included salary and who my manger is. Now, I know almost everything except what my job description is and where the new office building will located. So why is this in the good category? Well, I have a job being paid the same and I am assuming doing nearly the same thing as I was doing before. I have spent the last two years supporting customers and trying to make the software and hardware better and more reliable. Over all, even though I am still basically doing the same exact thing, it feels like I am starting over at the beginning. I am questioning if I really want to prove myself or deal with those headaches again all over again. For now I am in waiting mode until someone gives me direction.

More good stuff happened, but nothing more seems to be flowing from me right now. But is it good to be back in front of my computer doing something that surprisingly makes me feel happy.

Andrew

Listening

I have never been much of a reader. I read what I need to gather information but beyond that I would rather just sit and watch TV all day. TV has always been my favorite form of entertainment. In the recent past I have gotten in to listening to audio books. I started with books I always wanted to read, and in some cases started, but never really took the time or put the effort in to it. Lord of The Rings was the first series that I listened to. I moved on to Narnia and right now I am on the last book of the Dune Universe by Frank Herbert. I don’t know if I am going to continue with the Dune Prequels and Legends or move to something like Jim Butcher’s Dresden Files or Ender’s Game.

Since I started listening for my entertainment I have found myself listening to more than just books. A friend of mine started a podcast. By listening to this cast I have found my way to other podcasts and new subjects I never really took the time to think about. It has also lead me to start actually reading more. Not books or newspapers, but blogs and forums. I have started to find resources to make it easier to gather what I like to read in one place. It amazes me that just by listening for entertainment, I have grown to be more well read then ever before in my life. I am exposed to more new ideas then ever before.

I think of myself as a very unique individual when it comes to the world and how I learn about it. I am someone that remembers almost everything I read and hear. I believe that is why I am considered by many people to be ’smart’. I have a hard time classifying myself as ’smart’, well I have a hard time classifying anything. There are very few things that exist in this little world of ours simple enough to classified accurately. Since I remember details about a lot of things I can correlate between them and create new ideas based on that accumulated knowledge. This is something I do well because I believe knowledge in one subject can help you understand so many other subjects. The idea is not boxing yourself in, knowing something about object A doesn’t mean you know nothing about object B. Now what doesn’t this have to do with my podcasts, books, forums, or blogs? All the new information I am gathering is changing my perspective on many subjects. Even those I once had solid/unchanging ideas and perspectives on. My world is becoming more broad. I believe I am starting to truly see the world as a whole and not just my small little corner I was stuck in for so long. Well I didn’t know it at the time, corners are hard to notice when that is all you can see.

So just because I started listening, I can again say: HELLO WORLD!!!

Andrew